This is what dreams are made of.

So here's my typical day in a nutshell:
get up between 12 and 3. this is where i relax, get ready for the day, smoke, practice music, sit around on my ass. go into work at 5, deal with customers, make sweet tips. get home around 10:30 and unwind for about an hour before going out for the nite. hang out until about 5 am and go home and attempt to write some shit before sleep takes me. get up and do it all over again.

its getting old. the only thing i wanna do all day is play music or hang out with brian, meghan, or my band. pretty sad to say that there arent more people im interested in spending my time with. dont get me wrong, i have lots of dear friends, but alot of them i dont see or only see at, say, a BAR. fuck that shit. i wanna meet new people with new interests and solid goals. life is great but feeling a little stagnant. need something or someone to make it worthwhile. id like to take a trip this summer to the westcoast. california, sunset strip, beaches, etc. the band is really the only wothwhile thing i got going. and even thats not good enough for me anymore...

i found this today. someone made a video out of one of ours shows. totally B.A.


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check out my band...

www.myspace.com/nathankalish

so i need to find a job. im thinking about joining the army again. which i might do unless someone drops about 10 grand in my lap...

everyone come to my bands show tonite at skelletones at around 6ish. its like 5 bucks. we go on at 8 or 830. sweeeeeeeeeet.

fall is the best. best weather, best parties, best...weather. heres to fall. lets make it memorable...

if i could be jay or silent bob, id probably be jay. he just smokes and trys to fuck all day.

snoogins.

god, im so stoned right now...

friend - "why the fuck do you hang out with such young kids?"

me - "i..uh..."

friend - "dude, if you hang out with older people, youll actually grow as a person. there'll be alot less drama in your life. if partying and pointing fingers is the only thing yours friends wanna do, i would get some new friends fast."

me - "hmm..."


basically im finding out that the people that i thought were my friends...really...arent. its pretty hard for me to grasp this concept. i pretty much never have any drama when im hanging out with my older friends (22+). that shouldve told me something right there. im not saying im perfect, but this damn rep im getting is pissing me off. i might as well be a huge player, try to steal everyones gfs, fuck over my friends, and have alterior motives for EVERYTHING. alot of people already think that way anyway. i mean, if im doing the time, i might as well do the crime...right?

i just wish that for once somebody would give me the benefit of the doubt, instead of judging me by what people told them.

to my true friends: <3
to everyone else:



steve

this weekend blew. i cant wait til i get my own place in a couple months. if it werent for about a total of 2 people, id blow this fuckin town...

fuck sluts.

so the hardest part about having my birthday tonite is deciding where to drink...;-)

tonite was perfect.

If we help each other out along the way
Then maybe everything will be OK
Who decides if you'll succeed?
Who decides those things you want and need?

Looking back on all those years
All the smiles and all the tears
i never want those memories to fade
What we have done what can we do
We search our whole life for the truth
For always and always and always

I know sometimes well disagree
But no one here can absolutely see
Were just learning as we go
There's nothing in this world we just dont know

Honestly not interested

sorry if i hurt peoples feelings or offend people. im tired of constantly being shit on everytime i try to help someone. if you dont have a clue about what im saying, then this probably doesnt concern you. and this isnt just about one person.

its late, and im tired. nite.

believe me when i say it, you're not my style anymore...

i found a job finally. praise the Lord.

im listening to scatman with mikey.

scabadobibbidybobbidyboo....yeah, yeah...

a brain that never stops ticking / sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy / a mind that's constantly cutting up and dissecting / looking for answers committing murders along the way

is it the red wire or the blue wire / just pick one and cut / it just doesn't matter anymore / or did it ever / cause I could never control when the bomb would explode / oh god I love you / I mean forever / I left my body behind to break the news / looks like it's over / please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say / like you look smashing in your fourth grade picture the one that we hung by the door / in our house that was so beautiful / there in our little home

if this medication upsets your stomach / take it with crackers bread or a small meal / we understand it won't do shit towards the cure / but if you buy this I promise you're gonna like the way it makes you feel

is it the red wire or the blue wire / just pick one and cut / it just doesn't matter anymore / or did it ever / cause I could never control when the bomb would explode / oh god I love you / I mean forever / I left my body behind to break the news / looks like it's over / please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say / like you look smashing in your fourth grade picture the one that we hung by the door / in our house that was so beautiful / there in our little home

so seriously, i dont get this lj thing. im more of a myspace/xanga man. imagine a huge bowl full of a sauce called NOOB, and thats how i feel.

somebody take me away from everything.

true story.